First but not least

What a mess I have gotten myself into. I recently peeled away a layer of protectiveness in my emotional self to expose a profound wound that needs to be aired out. I am vulnerable, broken and a mess but I had to. I feel like I have to explain my fragile place. I grew up in a world where sadness was seen as a plague. I need to feel the pain within. I need to be in a gray space. I need to make friends with sadness. I need to dance with deep pains that if left alone will limit my life and not allow me to shine. I do not have to stay here, I do not need to loose myself here. I just need to feel it. So I am going to write for anyone who wants to see to see. I am not alone in this, neither are you.....