Drawing lines before the wall

My lessons in life are constant. I seem to be learning much for many reasons. I am not sure why i am put in the situations I am, I always approach it with integrity and love. I make mistakes and find myself giving into fear and insecurity, but in the end I always take the lesson at hand into my life.

Recently I have learned a great deal about drawing lines. This is the art of knowing that a personal boundary is being encroached upon before it is reached. For instance, I might have a boundary about how many hours I work in a week or how much complaining I listen to from a friend before I have had enough. It is not only important to know where the too much line is, it is essential to know a few steps before it.

If a friend was complaining and I waited till I was at my limit, I would be harsh, short or even mean... "Stop complaining now!" If I had stopped it before my limit, I might be kinder " i hear you my friend, Tell me about the best part of your day?" or something supportive and helpful.

In life we must draw lines. In a peaceful life we must draw pre-lines.

Manly Sex Talk - Sex is not only about sex anymore

Somewhere in my sexual career I slowly and unconsciously changed from an animal getting laid to a human healing others.

With my body, my mind, my heart and my spirit, when I enter into the sacred act of sex, my intention is to heal.

I can not heal others, or heal the lover I am with. I can only heal myself.

It is remarkable. While I tend to my healing I end up creating a healing environment that my lover benefits from. Then my lover heals, creating a safer environment for me to heal. The spiral supports a brilliant experience that ends up shifting everything.

Healing does not mean being soft and gentle every time. It means you honor your heart, yourself and the environment you are in. Explore your sole, explore yourself, allow yourself to be open.

Sex is now a healing tool I carry along with me.

The Dark Side of the Enlightened ones

Since I was young I always revered the top of the class. I always wanted to meet the pope, the gurus the elders. I wanted to run into every forest with the desire to find a magic person living there that will share with me some pieces of magic that will change my life.  I read books on the subject, biographies and philosophies, wikis and lectures, courses and text books. In the end I had a great idea of what to expect when I met one of these enlightened persons.

I was to meet a strong person, who can almost read minds, give pieces of healing at the exact right time. They can change the flow of a room, make everyone in it feel better. They never get mad or unfair. They offer abundance to all those around them. They are happy and strong and full of life.....

Man have I been disappointed. I have met some brilliant people, very powerful and very respected elders, shamans, priests, medicine people from all over this world. And to my amazement they all still fight against this worlds darkness.

They complain, forget to show appreciation to those who help, they are short, grumpy and tired. Most do not care for their bodies and most do not care for their neighbors. Protocol takes more precedence then action and egos.... lots of them.

Most of these Elders, Shamans and Medicine People have SO much to share with us all and they are doing their absolute best. What I need to remember is that they are human as well. That in the midst of fighting fatigue, financial uncertainty, anger from others and their own limitations they still find the energy and time to offer us their teachings.

The enlightened ones need our help. The more we are all AWAKE them more we can support each other.

The time of the lone wolf is over, it is time for the Community to be built on love.

Buckle up, time to step this thing up

I has been a while since I last wrote here. I am ready once again to start sharing what I have to share. I have a summer of a million memories and more lessons then I can count. I am in love now, not only with myself but with a worldly person, I would say the love of my life. I am ready to take this to the next level and commit fully to my sharing of medicine.

What I would like to say now is get ready. Let me know what you think, pass this on to others and in return I will not hold back. I will not care if I offend you or others, I will honor the truth, well my truth I am not sure there is one truth. All I know if that I am full of beans and ready to explode.

Let me start with a teaser. I will be changing my name. I am not Kevin The Wolf, I am Dreamhawk. This was a gift given to me by the forest here. It was given to me on a vision quest and a name I am struggling with taking on. It is a name that I know I need to carry and one that has much to show me.

I will share all of this, just be ready!!!!!

Dreamhawk